Well I guess I can officially call myself a blogger since I have written 8 blog posts in the last month. Wordpress is very encouraging because they give you these little badges that say “You made it to 10 followers!” and “You have 5 likes!” As I have discussed at length, I love winning things, so this feels very productive to me. However, I woke up yesterday morning with my first blogging injury.
When I got up my lower eyelid on my right eye was twitching. Just a little bit, jumping around here and there. It was annoying but not too bad. Then as the day went on I was convinced it was turning into Parkinson’s disease. I’m not diminishing Parkinson’s, it is one of my biggest fears to come down with that and I’m constantly on the look out for tremors. We drove home from Lubbock yesterday and I tried not strain my eye at all. Luckily for me Jesse loves to drive so he drove all the way home. Jesse convinced me that with a good night sleep in our bed it would be fine in the morning.
Well, it wasn’t. This morning it was really spazzing. It was to the point that when Jesse saw me he was like, “You are freaking me out, are you possessed?” I called my eye doctor and he got me right in. Jesse said, “Get out of here you look like Clint Eastwood giving me the evil eye." So I hit the road, preparing myself, as any good hypochondriac does, for the impending eye removal surgery, and what kind of eye patch I would wear.
Well as it turns out it is not a big deal at all. It is called blepharospasm. It is caused by eye strain, stress, caffeine and computer screens—which pretty much describes the last month for me. He also said that I need—gulp—readers. To which I replied, “Oh, I have those, I got them at the grocery store.” He said, “You are beyond what they sell at the grocery store.” This is what 39 years old looks like. What happens at 40 because I am running out of parts to remove and apparently I will be blind as bat.
All that to say, I’m not sure when I will learn to pace myself better. I just know that I have discovered that I love to write about what God is doing in my life and what he is teaching me. I think the Lord will always have to give me a steadying “Whoa” when I get going with something. He made me passionate so I can pour myself out on these pages, but He also taught to me to listen to Him. (This time in the form of a spazzing eye twitch.) Just a reminder to say, “Sarah, you don’t have to write all the things in the first month, we have a life time to record these things.” And in the end I get one more lesson in submitting to the Lord. And I will try—this post is only 500 words! That’s almost like a tweet for me!